In Tiny Tarot Wisdom for Spoonies, I’ll be going through every card individually and sharing mini insights we as disabled and neurodivergent (ND) witches can take from it.
Triumph and willpower aren’t words we tend to associate with ourselves as disabled and neurodivergent folks. When the people around us are starting businesses and traveling on once-in-a-lifetime trips, it doesn’t feel much like a triumph to, for instance, go grocery shopping in the midst of a bad brain day. I remember when I was first dealing with endometriosis, undergoing surgery after surgery and missing tons of time at college, my mom told me I was brave. I almost laughed at her. It didn’t feel like bravery. It felt like doing the bare minimum to survive.
But with time, I’ve been able to look back and recognize that yes, I was incredibly brave even if it didn’t feel that way in the moment. We have to fight so hard sometimes to do basic tasks and navigate daily life. What is that if not a triumph of will?
Take note of all the things that are hard for you, and acknowledge how incredible it is when you do them anyway. Don’t think in terms of what would be easy or hard for others. If brushing your teeth is a daily battle, you should be proud of achieving it. If it’s difficult for you to call out of work because of a flareup, pat yourself on the back for doing so. You are a Chariot no matter how fast you move or how hard you run.